The level of vulnerability I know I need in this next phase of my journey is so uncomfortable & unsettling, it gives me anxiety. I get the gist as to why but I’m mainly working on pushing through & not being in my head about it.
Especially when I’m in a space of service & healing. It’s what I’m about, my strongest suit is being relatable. I love connecting with people. I definitely don’t allow my fullness to be realized. I know it’s because of fear. I know to some degree I do bare minimum shit though, I’m a person that likes to put my soul into all that I do, I think when it comes to the leveling up of who you are & you shed another layer you realize, you can go a lot deeper at some point. What you did before was surface level to what you can actually do now. A different you, requires something different out of you.
My goal is to not censor myself. Allow the free-flow of my being allow myself to express my vulnerability in whatever way I feel. Just enjoy the experience instead of feeling it’s a burden.
It’s part of why I started this blog, to allow myself to be vulnerable and shift out loud. If I don’t have to do this phase in the dark and alone…Why would or should I? I have started several blogs over the years but never kept them up because of how open I was or had to be. I allowed myself to shrink and I am not longer doing that. I love the freedom no matter how cringey it makes me feel sometimes. Give yourself permission to be vulnerable. Be intimate with yourself (that’ll be something else I will write about in the near future) I can’t wait to see myself rise from the ashes and see what this new phase has in store for me.
Innerwhispers 